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A hymn to Jim or John...

I get remorseful & hateful when I hear your voice
Still I must listen for I have no choice
Can't always turn it off and on
How unceartainly I react
Lost all faith in mankind
Can't think of any more questions to ask
The race has been run and I still don't believe
Like to take a few steps back
Tonight before killers & thieves
With all we've gained so much more we lack
One man brought a world to it's knees
Beatle murdered - The heddline was a fact
So many crying; why did John Lennon have to leave?
Hurts my ears, hurts my soul, kills my faith
Still I carry on your weight
I was two when you were dead
Even god gets a little slow
For I believe in some resurrections
When the wheels go round you just never know

TIME WILL TELL
Above my head I hear a clap of thunder
I can't escape this cloud I'm under
Maybe I am God's only blunder
Or perhaps I am the world's eighth wonder
Oh, only time will tell
Whether I'm closer to heaven or closer to hell
At least I know my story and I tell it well
There's something in the air but what do I smell?
The tip of the iceberg or the bottom of the well?
Either my name will be remembered just like King Richard the third
Or I'll just be another singer whose song was never heard
Will I be the lurer or will I be the lured?
Will I live by the pen or die by the sword?
Oh, Only time will tell
Am I closer to heaven or closer to hell?
I hear the voice of someone calling me
But I don't know his name and his face I can't see
Don't know if I'm locking the cell or finding the key
Because both God and the Devil are still a mystery to me
Oh, only time will tell
Whether I'm closer to heaven or closer to hell

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(cut the last block after the second ---, "Lately I've been getting paranoid ... Waiting for": not on either photo)
Probably because I'm currently unemployed
Nah, I ain't got no money coming in
Waiting for

Everyone close to me I push away
Everyone afar never looks my way
Is this pergatory?
Is this punishment for my sin?
Is this pergatory?
Nothing ends, Nothing begins
Is this my fate?
Will the grave I dug forever hold me?
Is this my fate?
Forever unforfilled, Forver lonely?
Is this my cross to bear?
Seems my pen is my best friend
Is this my cross to bear?
I turn around but noone's there
Isolation, desolation, desperation
Agrivation, Agitation, seperation
I belong to this world
Though it does not belong to me
I am bound to every ball and chain
All the while telling myself that I am free
Because that's what I need
A half-hearted belief
The reason people {struck: free} {struck: pa} pray
The reason people grieve

VISIONS

Am I setting myself up for a letdown?
Will the next season I see be Fall?
Will I smile for a moment only to frown?
Am I putting it all on the line just to lose it all?

Women I've met - the list is a mile long
Heartbreak I've suffered sometimes makes it hard to go on
For every heart I've mended Has been broken
All that's left is a poem or a song

Yet with every new face and each new passing soul
Time wasted comes alive and I feel I'm getting old
And what I've learned is that some things are out of your control
Will this time I rise above or sink deeper into my hole?

If you live in a cave you'll never see daylight
If you never get up on stage you'll never have stage fright
If you never do it wrong you'll never know when yo do it right
The only thing I have to believe in is what I saw tonight

My past tells me now this is good as it gets
But I've changed my ways though I have no regrets
We've entered a new year so place your bets
But you're dealing with a memory that never forgets

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VISIONS con't.

By the waving of my pen you shall forever live on
Though everyone'll know about the rose in your bong
No matter what they think or say you'll just have to go on
Either with or without this poet named Tom

Be it by your culture or your ways I am so intreaged
Your words are my food and I am ready to feed
Perhaps you came along when I was in need
Maybe you are my Jesus and I need to believe

But don't let the weight of my world fall upon your shoulders
I've simply learned to seek what I want every year I get older
In this world of shapes I seek to be the molder
With global warming maybe life won't get any colder

All you need is love - I stole the Beatle's banner
In this earth full of impulses one must be a planner
With only one line left its time to ask you out to dinner
For in my mind I see only Visions of Johanna

PANDORA'S BOX
Inside
There is [crossed out: closed] Pandora's box
[crossed out: Nowhere] no face on the clock
As this new day begins so surreal and sublime

Watch a once high tide getting low
once
Gilde with the ebb and flow
As the sea dances in its endless pantomime

Tension has been released
Finally your mind is at peace
Being here alone is like traveling back in time

Lost freedom has been gained
How could you ever be the same?
Self-aware of a life [crossed out: without] ego or crime
[written below: lacking]

On the banks of this shore
One needs one's self and nothing more
No reason no rhyme and [crossed out: thus] everything is fine
[underlined: s]

No words that can hurt
No lessons [crossed out: needing] to be unlearned
Just a fire that burns but [crossed out: does] not scorch
Acting as a beacon, as a torch
helping to light the way
For all those who've been led astray
Neither at work nor at play
Is where I've come to find myself today
secret room

Strings break / Voices crack / Smooth skin wrinkles / it just a matter of fact / Just do the math

I've learned some paper cuts never heal / People who could be whatever they want / Yet lack the conviction to choose

I'm loading up the wagon full of TREASURES I
have gathered
And I'm letting all my friends know that I don't
know where they can find me
But one thing I am sure of is that I left
the present behind me...
The future {struck: holds} the secret to discovering
the answer
To whether it {struck: is} better...
{struck: Are you a puppet or just a dancer?}
to be a puppet with no strings
Or what we call 'round here a dancer

Brain {struck: wo} washing
Little kids

Disney corporate hypnotist

{struck: I} Like to smoke alot of weed
And listen to a little Lou Reed
That's really all I need

Somany choices so little time
Hear so many voices which one's mine?
Here at the bar its hard to hear
Drowning my sorrow in the bottom of my beer
One by one they take their toll
One at a time we all grow old
Yes here at the bar I drown my sorrow
Because here at the bar there's no tomorrow
Sitting on my stool my mind will roam
Until I'm drunk and stupid and I go home
When you have a date with Jim Beam
Reality can become a dream
I sit here feeling all alone
Waiting for someone to take me home
The clock tells me that its getting late
Empty chair beside me tells me I don't have a
date

I am now adding to the legacy
That is still ahead of me
But Some day it shall be left behind
As stories change and bend
Each time a tale is told
Yet what is carved in stone
Shall not warp in shape nor form
Even as time grows old
Will still [?] weather [?] any storm
BRICK Never freezes or cracks no matter how cold
Granite does not melt by [?] when the weather gets warm
It only acts as a strong foundation
For what is to be an unbreakable mold
One's cellar of thought is his only meditation
Where the only real chance to one day be at peace
simply another desperate situation
In Searching for something which is so out of reach
Both life and death are [?] always chained together
As Beginnings and endings will never cease
Because No man lives forever
The present is now
But it has just passed
When it's your time to go
Will you leave anything that lasts?
This quest for immortality
Is the one thing I hold dear to me
In life's harsh reality

(cut this --- and EVERYTHING after it to the end of the words box)
In this world who just don't have a clue
This girl I met last week
Told me I was kinda cute
So I came back tonight to see her
But now, in the rear view mirror
And I'm wishing I was some place else
'Cause she's two booths away
And she's sitting with someone else

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Donnie knows about
this and that about
Being bit by the
dogs and scratched
by the cats
Been there done that
more stories of the
day
yesterday never
catches up until
Past the break of
dawn

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Some people's presence is not a gift

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SWIMMING COWS
The boat was sinking
What else was there to do?
So after some thinking
I knew what I had to do
Stared her in the eyes
This time without blinking
I And gently told her we were through

It's quite a rough sea out there
Be careful who you let on board
Often just when you think the coast is clear
You may be attacked (Oh Lord)
So I make sure I'm the one who steers
Because Unwanted passengers I can not afford

The crew which I trust so much
Not one of them can row against the tide
When they're weak I'll be their crutch
I will never leave their side
But only if I know I'll feel their touch
Upon my shoulder with a sense of pride
And though this may seem a bit much
But I'll yank out their tongues if they
ever tell me a lie
Lying's not allowed
Neither are sacred cows
Or All their bull shit!
I'm not a hypocrite
I've just gone legit

They told me I was born better
than any other race.
I learned that some people put a lot of stock
in thinking that you can tell alot just by
the color of someone's face
They told me these guys over here were quite stingy
Mamma said that they'd been like that throughout time and
she said that their beliefs were unlike mine. They reject the resurrection
Yeah once I dated one for three years and they
treated me like family - Always wanted the best for me
But don't worry now because she's now Norwegian by injection
> there were no wedding vows, besides
anyhow
They told me that certain segments of society
were bleeding our economy, morality and even our personalities
And that nowadays there's just too much variety
I learned that the Native Americans
once met many new friends. The indians
had the knowledge of the land, the trees, they sat
and ate turkey and cultivated corn

There's just so many damn people
In this world who just don't have a clue
Women who spend all their time [?] lookin' fine
Hanging around the bars at closing time
Those who can't open new and better doors
Because they're so set in their ways
That they've closed their minds
Hence the root word of ignorance is ignore
But they don't care what [?] this wise guy says
And it ain't just y'all in Massachusetts
Where people got what I call The Framingham Blues
Tan girls showing too much skin, so hip to the day's new style
Big dumb guys lifting in the weight room again
Speeding past you in their Benz...
As they smile
They think they're so cool
It's everyone else who's a fool
Thinking Bling-Bling is the golden rule
That's why I sing, that's why I'm sighing...
That's what I'm trying to undo

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There's just so many damn people
In this world who just don't have a clue
I know a man who doesn't have a wife or family
Because all his life been he's married to his bar stool
I believe in education [crossed out text] because they never taught
that in school
I believe in rehabilitation even for the
silliest fool
And that used to be me
But now I think that it might be you
And it ain't just y'all in Massachusetts
Where people got what I call the Framingham Blues
Tan girls showing too much skin
So hip to the day's new style
Big dumb guys lifting in the weight room again
Speeding past you in their Benz...
As they smile
They think they're so cool
It's everyone else who's a fool
Thinking Bling-Bling is the golden rule
That's why I sing, that's why I'm sighing...
That's what I'm trying to undo

SOUL BAY

WHEN I WAS FIVE
My mother taught me how to lie when I was five
When I turn six I could get in and out of any fix
With just my tongue's tip in the blink of an eye
I'm telling the truth when I tell you that right on cue
I could make myself cry anywhere and anytime

Don't you know who I am?
I'm a very important man
Can't you tell with just your eyes
By this matching suit and tie
And these shoes and these socks
That I get paid by the pound
For getting bullshit to walk

(2)

(1)

(Never forgotten P.25)
I open the window
But I'm only looking out at the street
I think that I can see victory
Gotten used to the stench of
defeat

(4)

LOSING SIGHT
yeah, year after year
I've been losing sight of the light
And losing my will to fight
It's this seemingly endless monotony
That lately has been killing me
This is easily the longest day of my life

(5) SOUL BAY P.31

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When I was Five
My mother taught me how to lie When I was five
When I turned Six I could get in and out of any fix
With just my tongue's tip in the blink of an eye
I'm telling the truth that I'm telling you
that right on cue I could make myself cry
Anywhere and anytime

Don't you know who I am?
I'm a very important man
Can't you tell with your eyes
By this suit and this tie
And these shoes and even my socks
Hell, if it takes a million lies
I can get bull shit to walk

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LOSING SIGHT
I've been losing sight of the light
And losing my will to fight

It's this seemingly endless monotony
that lately has been killing me
This is easily the longest day I've ever had

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I can only stand to be around you
When I've had six drinks or more
And even then... I still don't like you
You're just easier to ignore

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Here comes another ring ding ding-a-ling
who ~~son~~ swings all around like a yo-yo, yo...

As a kid I thought alot
about how I once [crossed out: choked] almost
choked to death a cough drop (pause)
(reflect on the greatness...)
MY SYNAPSES GOT CONNECTED
So I thought some more
TO this day I've yet to stop

No I never been good
At holding a regular job
In fact it's never been my specialty
Holding on to anything at all

Especially when it comes to farming
Mother Nature, the pigs and the law
If you've ever lost your crops
You know you don't blame the weather
And it's never your fault!

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CATS & COWS
I keep awaking to the sunrise
without a thought towards the day ahead
I can scarcely even open up my eyes
Before I want to stay in bed
Another day of misery for someone somewhere
The front page news, the television, a story on the radio
Sometimes it makes me doubt if there is really someone up there
But I guess I'll have to wait cause there's really only one way to know
Where can I go to get away
Someplace that's not too far
What will I have to pay?
My own shooting star
Someplace where my senses are keen
And my thoughts are clean
[Blacked out text]
Of all the indifference we have seen
I need a change in the scenery
Maybe I'll go out and find some greenery
Of course only if the law allows
There might not be any left any how
Perhaps we were better off
When we were worshiping cats and cows
[Blacked out text]
Perhaps we've somehow turned ourselves
Back into serpents and back into sows

See-Saw
swing, swing, swing
See-saw See-saw
swing, swing
Up then down
To Smile then frown
Lefts and rights
And rights and wrongs
Thoughts then words
then poems then songs
Sun up, sun set
Fantasy and regret
To Heaven & Hell
To know and tell
To say and do
To lie to be true
To fight and lose
To fight and win
To fight and call a truce
To end just to begin
To ride the see-saw
To fall off then try again
To ride the see saw
To love to sin

grow

I've come along, long way the last couple
of years
I've fought my share of deamons
until they finally disappeared
Finally as I look now the coast seems clean
I know its time to start but I don't know where...
-to go
I don't know
-What to do?
I don't know
What type of seeds I'm gonna sew
I don't know
I just haven't gotta clue of what to do

I've penned 'a many sad, sad songs
And shed a few tears
I've had my share of lovers
who've all seemed to disappear
To each one true and to each one dear
But the burden of it all was too much to bare
For you Know
I don't know
What to do
I don't know I just haven't got a clue
I'm still looking for the perfect hole in which my
But I don't know seeds can grow
That not just any old hole will do
[crossed out: and that is true]

I need a curtain
so my neighbors wont know what I'm doing.
yeah that's for certain
cause last night they caught me screwing
in a light bulb in my underwear
I'm gonna hang me a curtain in the
looked like a peeping tom standing on a morning
So I wont scare the children
Imagine their little eyes
being taken in horror surprise
As they gaze on their window
Their pop's gonna make my
wife a widow
And my family's feelings
will be at hurting
just because I didnt shell out
three hundred pennies
He must on me for
uncle kenny
I'm dead because I never
hung a curtain
(Cover your windows)

(Female vocalist)
Beautiful Girl
Read all the books you want to
But beautiful still rules the world
You can make your money and you flaunt it you
But you're using it to buy me pearls:
Because I am a beautiful girl

And maybe it's true
But baby... I'm not going crazy for you...
If only my problems were love related
Then I could escape it
Stuck between a hard place and a rock
Got the weight of the world on me and I can't get it off
---
[cut off]hannel the energy Thats all around me
Only I can see the invisable enemy
And their army that now surrounds
me
It's too late to retreat
on scurry in defeat
All these people I meet
The ones you can not see
They've been following me
For over a week
What do they seek
What do they want?
They ash me to speak...
They're threatning to haunt me
clanging chains in the street
Making
Noises in the attic

You gotta trust in what you know
Do it!
Let it go
Don't hide from fear like most everyone else
Say "I'm right here go fuck yourself"
I ain't running any more
Getting even gonna reset the score
I'm tired of all the times I've let myself down
I never let my light shine I'm living in a ghost town
Yeah I used to point my finger and pass around the blame
Throwing rocks at sinners from behind my window pane
The only place that I was solitarily confined
Calling out everything and hated most people
Been crying out loud about how this city's self absorbed
Through all the shit no one's listened to My bitching and just I've grown old!

You gotta trust in what you know
Do it!
Let it go
They say youth is wasted on the young
Said by those who don't like what they've done
And where I've been hiding is off the map
Hanging with the fossils and artifacts
I've grown out of touch and self-absorbed
There are still parts of me left to be explored
needing to get burned
If you're afraid you miss a lot in life
The spark of a new flame and dinner by candle light
and

ALPHABET → B C D F G H J K L M N P Q R S T V W X Y Z
→ A E I O U (Y)
***** Q U I T T I N G *****
It is early, although it's late
It has come, so I no longer wait
They set the trap
I took the bait
Out in the wilderness I have
Met my fate

After following tracks
After warding off their attacks
I have built my shelter
There's no turning back
I have looked @ the calender
But have yet to set a date
I've found the error of my ways
But realized it too late

My poetry is my dying word
Some may think that at twenty [two]
it sounds so absurd
But in my soul I know I'm fading fast
If I die right now I'd like
Something that lasts
I pray I'm not a sheep
Just following the herd
I'm searching for a sun
But it's fading fast

Well my days of drugs are over
I got lucky like a 4leaf clover
Happy saint patricks Day
The memories and the stories
will never {struck: go} fade away
Sometimes I reminisce
Seems like just the other day
white boy in dreds
puts a gun to my head
If he could afford bullets
I may be dead
Silly me, I gave him money for the stuff
Sometimes enough is never enough
Done somuch my heart could explode
He took my money to the store
Now he's got something to reload
Silly me, next wandering soul to come to the door
May not realize what's in store
The smell of death is all too clear
Must be something in the air

As I stand before the judge {struck: and see} he licks his lips
{struck: [?]} they're gonna hang me AND I KNOW
I think of all the led paint chips
I ate as a kid
I think they made me angry!
I wet the bed from warm ahh to cold
So I light a fire and watch it grow
Put in juvenile hall for not following the law
Got CAUGHT trying to steal a Jane's Addiction CD
punched mall security before LAPD got ahold of me
I'm white so I survived but that was close
Like a Narcan jam right after an overdose!
For the seventh time I'm standing up here in
front of the man! mam

I know you wish you were here
Holding me this very moment
Surpingly So Suddenly you disappeared
Called me to tell me you were going
Then Something was stolen from me
But I can't erase you from my memory
We both agree that some things will never be
{struck: And now that you've left me}
I wish I could rewrite history
Yesterday has passed and tomorrow is just
a mystery
I won't forget your last kiss to me
And even though you never meant
That much to me
It's still sort of sad to see you leave

I'm just a young kid who's goin to school.
A workin class stiff who's never been cool.
I'm twenty years old and i've made my mistakes,
life ain't easy but you do what it takes.
i've been blown out to sea and derailed from my track,
and lifes gotten better once they cut me some slack.
My girlfriend is crazy but she don't get it from me,
i did all i could so i'll let her be.
I'm not too poetic for I shoot from the waist
When reality hits you like a slap in the face it leaves
Your mouth with a bitter taste
I don't have time to beat the bush,
When pullin' don't work it's time to push.
I have no respect

I was so busy being mad at you
That I forgot to look in the mirror
I guess I just needed a good talking to
Now I see the truth so much clearer
ALL MEN ARE ASS HOLES
ALL MEN SUCK
Just when you think you got a good one
You find out you're fuched!
Nah, Nah, its not quite as bad as they say

Kick it up a notch
or two
If that's whatcha gotta do
To make it through

Pick up your pace
a bit

In this Race
there's no Quit

When the end seems near
'cause the coast ain't
clear
The whole World is after you!

There's a brand new picture frame hanging on my shelf
The people in the picture posed so perfectly
I don't care if they're photographs of someone else's family
I've given them all names
To go with their faces
I tell of each ones claim to fame
And of all my made up places
either [scribbled out] where they're going to or else from where they came
CLPRV

I Knew HER TOO WELL
She's crazy as Hell
Her brain's turned to Jell
Now Does that ring a bell?
She got nothing to sell
Too many stories too tell
[BLACKED OUT TEXT]
wasn't doing so well
Now does that ring a bell?
Now she's gone clean
No more chasing the dream
and Acting so obscene
her Senses far from Keen
Decked out in punk and gleam

[number removed]
The bull dog is here!!!
Look at those eyes...
They show no fear
The bull dog is here...
He's an angry man
With that Bob Gibson stare
The bull dog is here!!!
Baseball is his life
And sometimes life isn't fair
The bull dog is here!!!

PAPELBON'S SONG
So sing with me it's sweet victory one, two, three
Rise up out of your chair
The bull dog is here!!!
Look at those eyes...
They show no fear
The bull dog is here!!!
He's an angry man
With that Bob Gibson stare
The bull dog is here!!!
Baseball is life
And sometimes life isn't fair...
The bull dog is here!!!

My boss here and me
I know we're all right
His appreciation I see
Though, he's a quickone to bite
His intentions are all right
A man who ends up winning the game
Built by another man's hands
Who's quick with advice
You need never ask twice
With one roll of the dice
He worked all his life
There's no one left
around to place blame

The fire and its fury
They say what a price we pay
But I, myself, say what's the use?
We all face ourselves some day
One's future arrives dead ahead for a pirate of the sea
Uncertainty's selected for all
Those under Capt[?].
So we sail down the Cove of
Across From Man's Mountain's
unknown tables
dreams of the free
Then backtrack, back for
the exil[?] erl
As high in the sky
As anything free

I, I dont want to lie to you
I dont wanna be your friend
I, I want to confide in you
That I saved the best
For the very end..
For the very end
I, I just had to tell
some one
my dirty... little secret
I, I have barely just
begun
to speak the truth
but now there's no use..
but now there's no use

I found an escape for every problem in the world
Only six feet away at all times
Be it under water or under ground
The bubbles float up
The casket's lowered down...
O ther than that...
Shut Up!!!
I don't wanna hear
another freakin sound

Three thirty four
Nothing less
Something more [arrow pointing to "open door"] walk through an open door
Three thirty three
Once what will be
Is now history [crossed out word] was once
Inside of me

Three thirty five
Shall some day thrive
Though not yet alive
Only if I survive