POEMS NOT YET RELEASED - PAGE 17 OF 19

A heartbeat ceases every New York minute
Can't stop and talk [crossed out: about]
'Cause I got caught
And now i'm stuck up in it
or
Have to watch the clock
Not even T.V.
Look at this face
What this has done to me...

Now there's an outrageous thought...
Thinking you can contain this lot...
Oh, it sure ain't the safest of bets
I don't know what you got going on in your
You just [crossed out] ain't got the numbers
You're only one...
We are the ninety-nine
that keep buried our guns
But we know where to find 'em
If that day ever comes...
When that day comes

(1) (6)
you thought you gave in
When you felt like giving up...
Guess you shouldn't think about love
When you're stuck down in a rut...

(2)
Yet that seems to be the time
When it's hardest to escape...
As tricks are played on your mind
Leaving you in such rough shape...

(3)
Is this really to be your fate?
Did ya miss the boat?
Is it too late?
Yeah, you watched it leave the bay...
Which means You weren't on it
Left the diamond ring still in your coat pocket
Forgotten and lost when you went to pawn it...

(4)
Oh, what a crying shame
But don't let it ruin your day...

(5)
Gotta void inside eating you alive
You gotta feed it !!!
Nobody can tell you what you should
To fill it, to Kill it,
Embrace it or defeat it ???
(back to First stanza)

Last Verse
('bout such stuff)
I think
sometimes
(7) we think
too much
[The end]

pushed down,
I got white washed and covered in snow
By the neighbor bully and I was right outside my home
Seems like there's no escape when you don't feel safe
I guess that's just the price I pay for walking all alone

---

BRIDGE
The invisible gap between sons and Fathers
Often seems like the Grand Canyon long
But the truth of why lies hidden
Beneath each others eyes
As we forget so conveniently
It is because of these men that we are born

Why do they seem so far away
with each breath we taky and
more and more every day that we live
Divided like the night and day
No one's ever crossed the bridge

Is the way too narrow
The Ropes too weak
Are the distance of a potential fall
Far too high to the bottom of the creek?

Is the fear of failure
Why so few have tried to get across
But in never knowing of the other side
So much is lost

Right Now... is the time
Right Here... is the place
Left out... is not where to be
Time to rejoin... the human race

Being human - it ain't a
bad thing to be, no.
So long as you accept the fact that
they [crossed out: put] just put a price
on your life
Then
And E-BAYED [crossed out: your] your
Soul

They say lightening
never strikes [struck: twice]
in the same place twice
& say we all
deserve a second
chance in this
game called life
I've heard all about

LOSING SIGHT
I've been losing sight of the light
And losing my will to fight

It's this seemingly endless monotony
that lately has been killing me
This is easily the longest day I've ever had

I got the Moo Moo Blues
All these Big eyes staring at me
I got horses lying down
'neath the shade of a Tree
Got the Ripples
Got the stream
Got the sun
and cloudless dreams

Time for another game
on another plane
Where all the pieces of the puzzle
Have again been rearranged
Down side UP
[crossed out: upside down] a is now [crossed out: right side] left
Right is center, [crossed out: and] parallel is
perpendicular, Day is dawn and dawn
is night
Triangles are square and squares
are [crossed out: an] oblong and circular

When I got lost inside
A MALL
WITH so many FLOORS and
STORES
I had to take their bus to find my car
That's when I so swore I wouldn't go back there
was sure
anymore
And I never did...

I'm not sure if her first instinct is to be fantastic

(to go in)
I am the rules

We do business as business is being done

Multiple pages of typed text on white paper bound together, with handwritten notes in ink and a separate lined paper sheet with handwritten text.

Posted 401

CANDY RAPPER SUPERSTAR
By Brian Rainstorm
-first toast to
This jam
Gonna spit it out of my mouth
As fast as I can
Like tries a peanut Eminem
Or L.M.N.O.P.
Hope you can understand
And comprehend clearly...
Them yelling:

"Watch your spelling and auto-
correcting!"
Or next under sex they'll be
questioning...
Over-messaging-and-texting and messaging
Did n't I try a guy like a faggot?

I'll reply:

Hey, I see something shinny
So I go and grab it
'Cause I just gotta have it
I know it's a bad habbit

Since I look like I lie
Like a Persian rug,
Judas and a priest
All rolled into one

But at least...
Wait, freeze, go back...
Did that 'but' have a crack? I mean...
One or two t's?
Oh boy!

Since my train of thought
Is fried, a win pot
If it didn't have tracks
I'd get lost a lot

Then I'd have forgot
Where I parked...
Oh yeah, over there
In the parking lot
Here's where I get off
(Haha)

Then I'd say:
"Hey, have a nice day"
(and wave..." that same fake smile on
my face)

As I'd drive away
In a big, bright white car
With out-of-state plates
With black lights
That at night read:
"Candy Rapper Superstar"
(ha ha ha!)

John Lennon was right...
And right you are!

Deep down you knew it
Anyone can do it...
Be a candy rapper superstar

Um... triple dipple
my nipples..
double
Lingle
Let's mingle!
That was the end
Right before the um...

IMOUT

Another collection
have to trace it
back 100 pages maybe?

Style and Noise
Style and Noise
Pretending you got something
When you really got nothing
(What do you got now?)
Style and Noise
Style and Noise
(Whatcha got now?)
How 'bout these clothes that I wear
(What'eda say?)
with so many surrounding sounds
It'gotten hard to hear
Seems the words are unclear
Style and Noise...
Style and Noise...

---

No, not all the good things have been taken
We're still here...
Things everything around us is breaking
But from what I hear
+ Exceptional (p.6) your
+ In the warmth of her eyes (p.7)
There is something special
I now realize...
+ box sets
Oh, yes I could let you be...
If that is what you asked of me...

Sit back and relax and grab some snacks
[crossed out: Shit getting [?] I'm eating in]
No risk it No Biscuit
[?] means you don't wanna miss it
life is coming at you fast
And its trying to kick your ass
You can hide inside your room
But without the sun you wont bloom
Stand up and face facts see what you lack
What is needed to [?] complete it?
And Did you plant your seeds yet?
The only questions that matter are the ones you
ask yourself

No, not all the good things have been taken
We're still here...
Though everything around us is breaking
But from what I hear
+ Exceptional (P.6)
+ In the warmth of your eyes (P.7)
There is something special
I now realize...
+ box sets
Oh, yes I could let you be...
If that is what you asked of me...

She said I'm just a piece of meat
And she better leave me where she found me -
back out on the street
She said I'm just a piece of meat

Music has no winter
Just like

Out on a limb once...
And breathed it in (4)
nothing that I can pretend for

I go outside it's fucking freezing
They're sending me to prison
Trumped up charges of treason
You see the Donald don't need a reason
Now for me it's hunting season
But it's the other end of the gun
The one that's less fun
First your feet and then your blood runs
You see defeat and then the ambulance comes
First to the hospital second trip the morgue

No one ever says they want to live long
enough to see all their friends die...
but they do
No one ever [crossed out text] admits
sometimes it's easier to live in a lie
but it's true

They gave me twenty pounds in a ten
pound bag
When I said thats more than I can handle
They said "Too bad!"

[in the margin: SECOND]
SERVED by Tom Jensen
They gave me twenty pounds in a ten pound bag
When I said that was more than I can handle they
said "Too bad!"
I go outside it's fucking freezing
They're sending me to prison
Trumped up charges of treason
You see the donald don't need a reason
They're targeting me this hunting season
No one ever says they wanna live long enough
to see all their friends die...
But they do
No one likes to admit [crossed out word] sometimes it's
easier to live inside a lie...
But it's true
After you've won every battle
And still yet lost the war
Is when you see the tragedy
Wondering what all that fighting was for
After winning every argument
All conversation was lost
You were left [?] standing all by yourself
But still you got your point across
You lost your head
And your body followed
Everything you said
The words ring hollow
---
Like a dethroned King
You sure struck a nerve
As the peasants cried:
"He got what her deserved!"

When you treat the world like your servant
Is when you wind up getting served!

Connect, control and kill
The virus is spreading still

Arrogent yet insecure I choose victimhood over failure
for so long it was ignored and then somebody tells y a
It's now up to you what to do with this new
information
Become Self-aware or remain scared when you couldn't bare
salvation

don't marry opinions marry facts
That's what Jill said to Jack
Jack just smiled and widely grinned
When one thing ends another begins

Page 1 of 2
new articles

TANGLED AFFAIR By Brian Rainstorm (5/27/2017)

I did my chicken dance
In the middle of the road
I thought I'd take a chance
I said, "Here we go..."

I finally crossed the street
And I made it on my feet
No gettin' squashed like a toad
I got as high as deep fried
In the sky I'd float...

Oh, but coming down
It's such a turn around
When tied wings can't fly
It hurts to hit the ground
That makes is hard to cope...

Like a ball of yarn and a kitten
With a grandma knittin' mittens
Quickly it becomes a tangled affair

You know you were doing something
Then suddenly all of time disappeared...

Nah, now you can't say you really miss it
Since your blown baby batter
Has grown to become a biscuit...

So now what else matters?
If you think it's only what you own...
The point is this:
You'll never even know you missed it

Don't want on my deathbed
To show sorrow
Once they've taken away
My last tomorrow

As the final drop of blood
Removed from the last vessel
Body's just another piece of trash
Tossed in God's trash receptacle...

The toxicity of publicity has begun rubbing off on me
I'm complicit I'm right up in it,
It's just as delicious as it is vicious
some grow suspicious still they solicit
Gotta scratch that itch every time they visit
Oh how they miss it -
Oh how they miss it

The camaraderie between authority can't be good for "me"
The [crossed out word] banner used to protect and serve
Now suddenly → we're the enemy getting what we [crossed out word] deserve

Don't be black at night
or piss poor and white
And fuck every Muslim
Sunni and Shiite (shite!)
He cracked a smile
Baton was raised
Trickle of blood
runs down your face
That's [crossed out word] when you see a democracy
Take control and call you free

I can do better than I'm doin' now
I can pull myself up some way, some how
The circle is spiraling out of control
I'm deep in doubt of everything that I know

with my past as my compass
I left and now I've returned
The scorched earth and bridge burned
nothing ventured nothing learned...
And now I'm running out of places to go
There's not many people left to call
friend or foe
And I'm running out of directions
left to face
Even inside my soul no longer seems
like such a safe place

Running out of answers, excuses and
people to blame
I'm hiding under the covers whenever
I hear my own name
I'm starting to think I'm never gonna go
back to the way I was again
seems my song lacks a chorus and
I wish I could change this refrain

Best place for a lie is between two truths
Time and the lack of proximity
I'm woker not broken
I was [crossed out] tokin'
I was to Joe Rogan
Listening how long until he calls me
[crossed out] to come [crossed out] on his show so
I gotta get noticed
But nobody knows this!
If they see [crossed out] and [crossed out]
[crossed out] and what I do
They lose their focus
If there's a lesson to learn here it's don't do
stupid shit
Like Hocus Pocus
Five fingers slowly closing
to form a closed fist
Can I resist?

A long day but a good day
It's the middle of April but feels like more May
Got everything I want today

Throw enough shit and what sticks
Goodnight... Say hello to the sun for me

{struck: TEN PERCENT} ONE OUTTA TEN

Ten percent of the people
have ninety percent of the fun
And what's left for the rest
Ain't enough for everyone

Uh uh...
So you know how it goes
You bottle [crossed out] it all up
And wait to see when its gonna explode
Best to keep a safe distance
For there will be blood
When this thing blows
Unless it's too late,
And we're already living
In a comatose state
If that's the Case
Then why should we wait?
Let us [crossed out] not hesitate
Just [crossed out] end all of this debate
OPEN UP THE FLOOD GATES
[crossed out]
PURGE AND CLENSE THE EARTH
LET THE WATER FLOW
Drowning out all the hate!

[in the margin: Third]
H2OH by Tom Jensen

I don't hide who I am
I'm not that kinda man... anymore
On what I don't know
I don't speak and think slow... for sure
The best place for a lie is in between two truths
Sometimes pretty eyes can blind you
And disguise what otherwise would suffice as proof

When one's identity
Seems to be seeded in the imitation of mediocrity
[crossed out text]
To be superior
To the inferior
which Just make me avarage at best
And Most often even less

Ten percent of the people
Have ninety percent of the fun
And what's left for the rest
Ain't enough for everyone

Uh Uh...
So you know how it goes
You keep it all bottled up
Wait and see when it's gonna explode

Best to keep a safe distance
For they'll be blood when this thing goes
Unless it's too late
And we're already living in a comatose state
---
If That's the case
Then why should we wait?
Let us not hesitate
End all of this debate
Open up the flood gates
Purge and clense the Earth
Let the H2O flow
Drowning out all the hate

FIRST

I got lost in an idiot coma
Tangled in [?] weed, my ego and greed, my soma
Dumbed down to such a degree
Nobody recognized me
When I was lacking form
Oh how the flies did swarm
And other creatures meaning to do me harm
I see what's bad for my health
Worst of all for me was myself!

SMACK DAB
by Tom Jensen

I landed smackdab in the middle of rehab
"Lucky for me it was only weed" reads the hashtag
But it's [?] getting the munchies and [?] a little worse than being paranoid
Looking back at me I see a junkee
who keeps Trying to fill the void
I dropped the Sauce and kicked the blow
what seeme like two life times ago
When I was outta breath, I [?] gave up cigarettes
I got just onething to do that I havent done yet..

I've never not had something to help take off the edge
I've forgotten what's it like to live inside my own damn head

I've taken too many hits from the bong
That's usually how I get along
All my life now I'm not saying it's wrong
But my mind's been reminding me
it's time to move [?] on
---
I've been with too many bitches and whores
I Don't want my heart broken any more
[? written over: broken] glass and blood on the floor
Funny Honey I'm the one [? written over: with] my back to the door

I'm still bleeding
Are we even?
I've said it before
This time I'm leaving

Yeah, Time and a lack of proximity
Allows for one to turn friends into enemies
Or [? written over: change] an old enemy into a new ally
Maybe even cut the cord and finally say goodbye

Thirst by Tom Jensen
I had the worst kinda thirst
So after work I popped the cork
Nah, I don't even need a primer
Since I'm barely a part-timer
More like an abstainer
Keeping the plane inside the hanger
Because I don't trust the pilot
Whither I never [?] so quiet
Shut's up [?] [?] [?] just damn
It appears this wine has a spirit
Seems this drink thinks on its own
The car's in the [?] yard lights are on
But no one's home

Yeah I'm two glasses deep in
And not very good at keeping secrets...
I just poured a third
But it wasn't for thirst
If the second one was better
Then the next one can't be worse
Now I'm way past buzzing
Getting close to kissing cousins
Blowing kisses by the dozens
We all need a little lovin'

(more lyrics on comp.)

Bird Bread
dry food
muscle milk
Coffee BJs
coke zero
gas
cereal
english
2 dollar plain donuts
Big Hungry man
BJs chips
Saltines
oj pulp
Balance Check

Weu today when they lie
they baeiv [?]
knowing they'll [?] suicided
Before they can give up the files
All thise P.D. f. [?] files yeah
We all know those in control
Have Bled and sold their sol's
End Up on a list
with those who can't resist
Black mailed like a mother fuck
Leaving honest us feeling cucked
knowing we can't trust
Face full of disgust
[bracket encompassing "Coffee BJs", "coke zero", "gas", "cereal", "english", "2 dollar plain donuts", "Big Hungry man", "BJs chips", "Saltines", "oj pulp", "Balance Check"]
[arrow pointing from list to] BJs

I don't know what to tell ya...
I used to be a pretty good fella...
Then one day I did something that might sound strange
It was during the Ides of May that I changed my name

Soon I changed my ways
Which changed my means
[struck: As I fought my way] Now I spend my days
[struck, unclear: Trapped among; written under it: cutting myself on [struck: my]] shattered dreams
[struck, unclear: But there was; written above it: Left with] no escape
Without a leap of faith

Who would catch me were I to fall?
No one. [struck, unclear: Perhaps it is better than; written under it: That's when I chose] to crawl?
That's when I lost it all.
That's when I lost it all. / I lost it all. -> Or worse yet
do nothing at all

[in thick marker:] Killed my Beagle
Deeply Superficial

When chaos comes calling
Answer cool, calm and collected
Have you ever felt yourself falling?
Tripped up when you least expect it?
That always leads to the hardest fall
Sometimes you're lucky if you get up at all

I guess when you're living with your head in the clouds
It can be good to see lots of silver lining
Yet when you come crashing back to earth
Don't plead from your knees crocodile tears eyes crying
That you never in all these years ever realized your life declining
Silver lining...
That's too much silver lining...
Too much silver lining
Can keep the sun from shining
So be careful of silver lining

Here comes another ring ding ding-a-ling
who swings all around like a yo-yo, yo...