Read My Stuff — Pages 150–200

With every hurled stone that is cast I walk one step closer to becoming broken With every coming sunset I manage to outlast Ahead lies a sunrise by which I may not be awoken With every cigarette I smoke I see another small sign of cancer With every question that I ask I find I come closer to the answer As I look within your empty eyes You create a new fantasy to fill the void You play some music to cover your sighs and fill your room with all those pretty toys... Hey rich girl...Throw the keys to your Mercedes down to me You'll have to leave it all behind if you really want to be free I look at my hands they're all beaten and torn Sometimes you must get dirty if you want to be reborn Hey rich girl... tell me what did you see when you traveled the world? Did you do all you were told like daddy's good little girl? Come away with me and maybe I'll write you a song I've come here to teach you that everything they taught you was wrong... Hey rich girl... Just what makes you think Father always knows best? Sure you've found some answers but you still must take the test With every hurled stone that you cast You walk one step closer to becoming broken With every coming sunset you manage to outlast Ahead lies a sunrise by which you may not be awoken With every cigarette you smoke You see another small sign of cancer With every question that you ask You come much closer to the answer Look within your empty eyes A new fantasy to fill the void? Play some music to cover your sighs Fill your room with more pretty toys... Pretty toys…Pretty toys…Pretty toys IT IS YOUR TURN by Tom Jensen If you don't know yet who I am Don't worry that will change I am a very simple man Both on and off this stage My life's work and my fun are one That's why I am so happy We all regret something we've done Won't let that entrap me I just look ahead... and never behind Helps keep me from wasting all my time Best for your body, soul and your mind Can't press fast forward... I can't hit rewind Leave something they will remember you by Like those who were the first to fly Or the first man on the moon Now it's your turn what will you do? You won't find me living in the past Too much to do time runs by so fast We never know how long it'll last So little sand in this hour glass Don't live life doing something you hate That is the best advice I can give Work is a four letter word - yeah, great! Some live to work and some work to live... Spend your life doing something you love If it don't exist then make it up You only walk this trail one time 'round Don't let your dreams fade to the foreground You won't find me living in the past Too much to do - time runs so fast We never know how long it'll last So little sand in this hour glass We never know how long it'll last So little sand in this hour glass BELIEVE ME by Tom Jensen I could tell you all about my life… But you probably wouldn’t believe me You find me always doing right… And you think it comes easy You, who finds something new… And becomes afraid With that view… There’s not a lot I can say You’ll find out the hard way That’s the price that some pay When you play it too safe Sometimes you don’t get to play If you knew what I could do… You wouldn’t throw me away You’d say: I’ll make some time… Let’s spend the day… Entwined But still you judge me like all the rest I would have given you my best We’ll never put it to the test I failed to peak or keep your interest You never leave yourself exposed Always someone else out in the cold Hell, people feel lucky if you just show I think we all know how this is gonna go…

While looking for a role model While looking for a good hobby Ended up picking up a bottle Ended up hurting my body I tried to save a lost cause I guess I got a little carried away Ended up losing myself And let another one slip away Looking for the sacred river Looking for warmer waters Ended up a disbeliever And being led to the slaughter ooh oh oh oh ooh ooh ooh oh oh oh ooh ooh Tried to help them climb out from the valley Tried to bring them to my level Every time I get close - my God They introduce me to the Devil Looking to transcend my existence Looking to find Heaven on earth Ended up finding a sign: NO ADMITTANCE I couldn't break the curse I guess you shouldn't try to be a shepherd When all your sheep jump off the cliff But you can't see inside my conscience And all the pain I'm living with Alright! Looking to begin another day Looking to be the voice of reason Ended up denying many things I say Ended up my own victim of treason Looking at myself in the mirror to see If I could recognize my face Finally seeing everything much clearer And finding the self I had misplaced ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh Looking for the sacred river Looking for warmer waters Ended up a disbeliever And being led to the slaughter Looking for the sacred river Looking for warmer waters Ended up a disbeliever Being led to the slaughter ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh Looking for warmer waters ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh Looking for warmer waters ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh Looking for warmer waters ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh Looking for warmer waters

Maybe you'll see him again when all is well Up there in heaven or maybe down here in hell There's no telling what the tide will bring to shore No way to know if you'll meet again Once you walk out that door Think of the one you loved whom you now despise Believing that a heart grown cold is a heart grown wise Yet before the flood Mother Nature sighs For she holds a power that no man denies Soaked to the bone as you're on your way home With the umbrella that you hold at least you are not alone Yet you're soaked to the bone as you're on your way home With the umbrella that you hold at least you are not alone Everything happens for a reason soon you will realize That even your worst nightmare could be a blessing in disguise And that after it rains the sun will rise Allowing you to gaze up at brighter skies Your soul will guide you when your heart tells you lies Sometimes when you search you have to close your eyes There is no such path straight as the crow flies This journey you make is filled with lows and highs Soaked to the bone as you're on your way home With the umbrella that you hold at least you are not alone Yet you're soaked to the bone as you're on your way home With the umbrella that you hold at least you are not alone So much for talking You had better start walking With the clouds rolling in pretty soon it'll pour As all the dirt washes down the street Like tears cried over a battle that was lost in defeat Maybe you'll see him again when all is well Up there in heaven or maybe down here in hell There's no telling what the tide will bring to shore No way to know if you'll meet again once you walk out that door Soaked to the bone as you're on your way home With the umbrella that you hold at least you are not alone

Lately it's been getting The better of me Wondering how long It'll take 'til she sees That we're soul mates If there ever was, is or could be For I feel in my heart One day she'll think differently So patiently... So very patiently... I bide my time... Within this endless rhyme: These feelings inside I can no longer fight Can you tell, does it show… I’m still thinking of you tonight So patiently... So very patiently... I bide my time... Within this endless rhyme: Searching in my soul Trying to find my inner light Sitting here by myself… I’m still thinking of you tonight I sit here and then My pen begins to write I just want you to know… I’m still thinking of you tonight So patiently... So very patiently... I bide my time... Within this endless rhyme: Waiting for you here With just this line that I recite Nothing's changed how I feel… I’m still thinking of you tonight I’m still thinking of you tonight BETRAYAL By Tom Jensen What will her friends say? What wild rumors will be spread? Where lies her escape? These thoughts run ‘round in her head She had been bruised inside Blood trickled down the side of her face He was twice her size She was just half his age She fought so hard but she was unable to resist That’s okay, I like it better this way, he hissed When she tried to say no with her knee He said yes with his fist But luckily, when he swung he had missed… At least the first time He pinned her down Leaving red welts on her wrists? To mom and dad she cried: I’m sorry to have to tell you this: But Jesus wasn’t the only one Who was betrayed by a kiss Yet never in Sunday school did they ever cover this… And this was her first time What will her friends say? What wild rumors will be spread? Where lies her escape? So many thoughts run round in her head Once it was known That his seed had been sewn She carried the child like a disease For when the baby came How could she explain That a rapist’s eyes were all that she sees What will her friends say? What wild rumors will be spread? Where lies her escape? So many thoughts run round in her head Conflicting voices whisper in her ear She tries to drown them out but they won’t disappear Her pastor’s sermons and a voice that she hadn’t heard before Every day that voice Speaks louder… She knows soon It will speak no more…

I met a gypsy mamma One day while I was driving down the road Would have mistaken her for a farmer Had her tire not felt the need to suddenly explode There she sat stranded With her young boy in tow This summer trip they had both planned it But this was not how it was supposed to go "Can I help you out little lady? I got a face that you can trust And soft spot in my heart For people down on their luck" With these words she smiled And proceeded in telling me She didn't know where she was headed Only that she had a date with fate and destiny Said she lived in the same state for far too long And that she was a singer but lately all the words kept coming out wrong With her life lacking harmony she had since stopped writing songs That's what she said... With that I paused and took a breath I said yeah, I play too, and I'm heading out west Where the sky is the limit and sun shines bright And all the people like to party like it's friday night With big brown eyes she looked at me and said: "Hey man, you're alright!" So we just kept on driving No, she never looked back That was exactly ten years ago today As a matter of fact If it wasn't for a tire I'd have just kept on driving by And if I was liar she'd have left me high and dry (That's what she could have done) If she was a farmer she could have lived off of the land Yet she was gypsy mamma Albeit one with a plan Now ten years we've been together Creating and writing and playing songs (gypsy mamma) As both our lives keep getting better… To think that all this started 'cause one day everything went wrong... woh ooh USED TO BE by Tom Jensen I used to be really rockin' I used to be rollin' I had it I lost it I found it…aAnd then it was stolen So now I'm back out lookin' Down the avenue I'm strollin' Still got the fire but nothing's cookin' I had it once but I no longer hold it Gone, gone, gone away I found it once but I no longer own it Led, led, led astray Let everybody see it When I never should have shown it No, no, no way And if you can't clone it Then you better lock it away That's why today Is just the price we have to pay For yesterday's mistakes For jumping in the lake When it was far too shallow and much too cold Didn't pay for the ticket but ride is getting old All right everyone gather around Everybody's gotta play their part Go starting looking all over the ground And don't stop looking until you find my heart I once gave it away but it was disregarded And the way I see it yYou'll probably find it in pieces 'Cause she left me here so brokenhearted I used to be really rockin' I used to be rollin' PICTURE SOMETHING NICE By Tom Jensen Homeless mand in the alley He's paying his dues While he was sleeping The children took his shoes When he wakes up He looks so confused His pride is hurt What's left of his ego is bruised Yeah, every hour of every day The faces change But the story's the same You live it, you breathe it You hear it, you see it You learn to accept it And soon you expect it Just as the sun rises Just as the moon shines bright There's no need to worry You're doing all right Don't pay attention Just walk on by Picture something nice Don't you bat an eye It's not your problem Someone else will solve it It's not your problem Someone else will fix it You just leave the worrying to me I'll worry about the way thing ought to be It's not your problem So go on and make your exit You think that you're perfect? In everything you say In everything you do Some say what you don't know Cannot hurt you And you believe it to be true Oh, but the price you will pay You will find out some day That day maybe today Or could still be far away So you better keep on your toes Because there is something That everybody knows Inside there's a monster that grows Beneath your pretty clothes A vanity affair But there is no one else there You're only cheating yourself A vanity affair Either make amends Or keep playing pretend You're only cheating yourself When you think you win Then you really lose So either apply some more makeup Or think of changing your shoes A vanity affair You're not just cheating yourself You're dragging down Everybody else

A passing daydream floated by I plucked it clean out of thin air Only an hour ago I heard your voice And at this moment..... It felt like you were here... So many precious times... What I hold dear has disappeared But to let someone so close to your heart Very few have ever dared... Share what we share My memories are my company Whenever I turn and you're not there Wherever I come to find myself I hold them tight... When I am scared Then I feel a calmness in the air Oh, how sweet the taste As I stare into a beautiful daydream I hear your voice, I see your face Yes, I could spend just a day with you That would be enough to see me through All the anger and pain from the rest of the week All the horror and madness that we must face After an hour or two with you it has all been erased So I've come up with a plan to get us through Put your trust in me and I'll trust in you My memories are my company Whenever I turn and you're not there Wherever I come to find myself I hold them tight... When I am scared Then I feel a calmness in the air Oh, how sweet the taste As I stare into a beautiful daydream I hear your voice, I see your face For I can take you to the place you see We could both be there living in harmony No longer would we have to search our memories Together we can turn dreams into reality My memories are my company Whenever I turn and you're not there Wherever I come to find myself I hold them tight... When I am scared Then I feel a calmness in the air Oh, how sweet the taste As I stare into a beautiful daydream I hear your voice, I see your face ONE NIGHT STAN by Tom Jensen Well I’m going out tonight And I look ‘aight It’s time to give the ladies hell We’ll catch one under our spell And then maybe take her home You know I love to bone! The next morning I’ll drop her off And never call her on the phone You can call me ‘one night Stan” Hey baby, I’m YOUR man! Let’s have a little fling Who get the girls to sing? And as you’re calling out my name We’ll get this kitten tamed I’ll give you the best day of your life Then sneak out in the middle of the night Yeah, you get just one day then I’m afraid I’ll have to go star on another stage Today it’s ALL the rage So don’t feel like YOU’VE been played They call me ‘wrong number Bill’ Hey baby come and get your fill! They call me ‘long gone John’ It may not be right… But you can’t tell me that it’s wrong! HISTORY TO ME by Tom Jensen I remember when Ice Cube and T were black And rapped...now they act...like crap... I remember when The Rock he cooked And then he'd call us all funny names Eye brow raised with that funny look... Now he acts...like crap…it’s a fact… Everything is coming back But changed... They're calling it the same name But it's strange... I remember when it was cool to say hello To somebody new I didn't know Now they're all plugged in to their phones Which is plugged in where? They don't know... They don't care. I say hello. They don't say hello. So I stare... Uh Oh... I need more than a good chiropractor To fix this fractured broken soul I need more than skilled psychiatrists To bandage up these mentally slit wrists And net all these knotted thoughts I watch spin and twist out of my control So look out… all up, down and around Both near and far, hey you up there, look out below! Everything is coming back But changed... They're calling it the same name But it's strange... I’m seeing so many faces playing charades Believing they’ve found a new game in a new age… Hahaha… It’s just history to me… Written on a fresh page CUTIE PIE by Tom Jensen Since a miss by an inch Is as good as a mile I’ll die wearing hip dirty clothes Opposed to clean ones out of style You can tell as much about me from my eyes As you can from my smile I don’t mind being hypnotized By a cutie pie for awhile I’ll have you understand I found my weakness as a man Running my fingers through your hair As your breath became my air Every time I closed my eyes You’d be there inside my eyelids As your voice became my music I’d hear piano, harp and violins No longer am I lonely Since our hearts were joined souly Even apart we’re still together From now until forever I don’t know what could be better?                                                                                                                                                                                      t part two BIRD ON A STRING By Tom Jensen He held a bird on a string But it's not what you might think It was only for her own protection Oh how she could sing And how she loved to soar Oh how high she could fly When she knew she need not Look down anymore He would always be there to catch her When she fell back to earth For in his life he had learned many lessons But to him nothing had ever meant more Than when this his most prized possession Once released from her cage He'd get to go and see all the places That she would take him to explore He held a bird on a string She became to him his everything He let her out every morning Then each evening she'd return Every day she would fly higher So then the string became longer The song she sang became louder As her wings grew stronger and stronger Oh how high she could fly When she knew she need not look down anymore He would always be there to catch her Whenever she fell back to earth

I'm feeling trapped Within myself Within my heart and within my own head... I'm feeling surrounded With this sense of hurt, this sense of loss and the feeling of dread I'm waiting for your letter The one that I'll cry as I read: The one that says: "I'll always love you... But you're something that I don't need" And it is filling me with misery And I still feel nothing but love Love for you... but not for me That part of my heart is empty There's nothing there it's null and void I worked so hard to get you to love me Yet here I am left unemployed I don't feel bitter I just feel let down I've never been a quitter I'm a lover not a leaver But now I'm leaving town... 'Cause I just can't bear to be around In you... I am your greatest believer In me... I'm my own greatest deceiver As everyone told me it was a fairytale world From inside this house of shattered glass I stood up to every stone they hurled And we both know it hurts Watching your blood make mud As it mixes with the dirt That they also threw at you But I knew what it was that I had to do Still, through all of this I only know of one truth: I will never stop loving you But what's even worse: Is that you know it, too BETTER THAN IT SEEMS By Tom Jensen I am trying to unlearn What all the teachers have taught me I am trying to unlock An original thought but I have no key I am trying to believe That it's better than it seems (Or at least what I can see) I am trying to achieve The American Dream Of leaving a legacy behind me Look out the man's got the pen again Pulls it out every now and then Smokes some pot as your thoughts Become your friends Keep on looking for answers Until the questions end So what pulls you through? Is it something bigger than you? Or is it lesser than you? It could be that, too For so many this is true Oh, so what am I to do? Lock myself in a vault And point my finger at you Screaming everything is your fault Sure, you're soul searching Yet you haven't found a clue Finally my inner turmoil is at peace I slayed the dragon I conquered the beast Fought so many things That I could and couldn't see That which I once believed Would one day get the best of me Has now been left behind I always knew it was just a matter of time Now that I'm finally where I want to be I still can't really say that I'm doing fine With all this free time plaguing my mind I get to dig a little deeper inside Still afraid of what I'll find

I don't read the paper Hell I don't even watch the news Everyone's used to horror and everyone's got the blues Always another plane crash Or gunman on a rage I never pick up the paper unless it's lining for a cage I used one for my birdcage And my bird spoke of death and hate I wish I'd used the comics... But I realized this too late The worst is on the cover seen by children of every age... If I was editor of the paper, I'd put the good things on the front page! Then maybe it'd rub off and people would treat each other kind Have you heard the expression, out of sight and out of mind'? When violence is on TV Then children will play with guns Yet when they're watching Sesame Street That's when they're having fun I'm moving to the mountains So I can watch the trees Where you don't have any doors and you don't have any keys House of wood, Bed of straw When I see a pig, it won't remind me of the LAW! I won't use no roads -- I'll set off on my own course Trading my ford for a six pack and a horse I took that walk through the wilderness to escape a world of lies I proposed to Mother Nature but I only heard her sigh... Felt the swaying of the trees as I walked on fallen leaves She reminded me of the death of everything that breathes There are those who try to play God Shoot everything that moves The fact that men can make rifles Is the only thing it proves I traded my gun for a camera -- That should come as no surprise A deer I watched drinking from a stream -- I shot him right between the... eyes Now it lives on forever Does not die today Captured in a picture that will never fade away FACE TO FACE By Tom Jensen You can run and you can hide But I know your face It always shows That you can’t lie… So I don’t call you On the phone And now you know The reason why… I read your letters So full of love You tell me I’m the one That you’re thinking of Yet I know your gift When it comes to the pen As I think to myself You’re at it again One line leads to another line One lie leads to another lie I know all the walls You use to hide behind - It’s true So I wait outside your place To meet and greet you face-to-face So I know whether to cry or laugh When I look back at all those paragraphs – From you As I think back to all the things you’ve said For I long to know what’s really inside your head What you’re thinking to yourself and also about me When you say that destiny is what we were meant to be Together and forever for it was written in the stars Yes, this is the true you and this is what you really are Or whether this is just another plot and I am just your toy Am I really your man or just a silly little boy? ENDLESS CHORUS By Tom Jensen I'm as deep as the day is long That's why it hurt me To find myself becoming weak When I needed to be strong This long day and my long face Shows you that I know no other way So it's back to bed with a worried head An unsteady mind and too much time I think too much about the past Of broken trust and how things don't last I'm as deep as the day is long That's why I rarely sleep And I only dream in song Then I wake up And I try to play along To the melody That my heart weeps Since you and me We broke our bond I find your ghost Keeps haunting me With rattling chains And shaking keys I try to hide But to no avail Just an endless chorus About how we failed... ENEMY OF THIS STATE By Tom Jensen I share my darkness with the morning It’s about time to set back the clocks I can see now that the world's been turning Through this tiny hole inside my prison box Yes, I'd rather sit here within my own seclusion Then go chasing after some make believe dream So many have become entrapped by the false illusion That what we think we see is what it appears to be For all of the freedoms That we once held dear With one lie and one swipe of the pen I have watched them disappear Life sure has changed So much since yesteryear I'll become an enemy of this state When hope can no longer conquer our fear Perhaps I’m being too critical Of this society in which we live But sometimes it becomes too hard to take When those who have the least are the only ones who give Yes, life sure has changed So much since yesteryear I’ll become an enemy of this state When hope can no longer conquer our fear BEST LEFT By Tom Jensen One single ray of light broke through the clouds Touched down upon the ground that I was standing upon My lover right beside me just stood in my shadow By the time she made up her mind to move the light was gone Though it was never discussed This scene said so much about us This strange phenomenon Either she didn't notice or else didn't care Just stood there in the cool, crisp air At six minutes past dawn But I know another girl who is made up of sunshine She's waiting but I'm not sure if she's been waiting for me She's someone who knows Just how I'm feeling Yet she's uncertain If we were ever meant to be So I asked her if I could come and see her For it seems she's now ready to settle down After five years of traveling across the country She picked out a state And said, "No more moving around" And I've been searching for inspiration For a new picture to place inside my frame I have grown bored with everything around me But I'm unsure of whom or what I blame I've been seeking a new set of surroundings A new life, a fresh face, a new name I'm getting tired of waiting For the time to be perfectly right I'm packing my bags when I get home And I'll be leaving some time later tonight I'm unsure of my exact destination I desire somewhere with a warmer locale Maybe then I'll kick these winter time blues And brighten up my entire morale Yes, I've been searching for inspiration For a new picture to place inside my frame I have grown bored of everything around me I've decided that things just can't stay the same So I won't say that this story's finished Only that soon I'll be heading west on a train Sometimes you can't wait you must create your own fate Find out if some things are best left... Unexplained

I find my religion in the basement of churches Never mind a pew Here I sit trying to learn from my mistakes God knows I've made a few If you'd made as many as I have Then you'd probably sit here, too Here I sit and reminisce it all Biding my time by reading slogans on the wall Maybe a higher power is what I need Perhaps placing something above myself will set me free For you can only tell what you're really worth When you realize you're not the center of the earth The sun does not rise for you No matter how much you want it to Then the rest is up to you Use your better judgment if you want to

I'm inspired...again By the flame of a fire at least it's not the rain I'm inspired...again Will this song that I sing just sound the same? The same as all the other songs That I used to write Where the melody was truly beautiful But the words were never right Or maybe it was just the name What if I change it? And yet let the lyrics remain Perhaps then all would be In perfect harmony If instead of her and I I wrote about you and me... I'm inspired...again to open my heart And with this new start another song would begin Or it could all come to an end And instead of an old love song This time I could start my new rhyme: A poem freshly penned for a friend Either way I would write with words full of love Hoping that you and I unite Sharing all the dreams we've been thinking of... I'm inspired...again By the flame of a fire at least it's not the rain I'm inspired...again Will this song that I sing just sound the same? ALCOHOL By Tom Jensen I am a victim though I feel like a hero You make me feel like number one yet I'm a zero All this you put me through and still I go back to you What is wrong with me? Why can't you let me be? I saw you once and then I saw you twice Now I see you all the time When everything is said and done I'm the one who pays the price You never treated me kind I had to descend from the highest mountains Just to come back to earth I climbed up the slopes of the valleys For what any of it is worth Still I come back to you after all that you put me through You and I walked hand in hand and I picked you up when you fell I thought you were my ticket to heaven and still I landed here in hell Our conversations were one-sided… I never tried to hide it You've never given me good advice Still I come back to you When everything is said and done… I'm the one who pays the price Every time I try to stay away you cross my path nearly everyday I fight so hard to walk a straight line I fight so hard to leave you behind Once false step and I'm back again and no further on then where I began Still I come back to you after all that you put me through What is wrong with me? Why won't you let me be?

Alright…When it comes to minds and going exploring... I raised my hand in the air and yell out I'm all for it You may leave the room now to avoid a mind full of questions You may leave the room and pace the halls with the rest of 'em So many men don't understand What we hold in our hands or what I'm speaking of As this world keeps turning There's a fire burning within minds like mine yearning for love Like Michelangelo's marble She possessed only the finest of features Now I've found what I seek All my life I've been a student And now I have a teacher I love the way her mind dances Perhaps in time I'll reach her Seems when she sings a song I can't help but sing along Now I proudly call myself a believer We had a little talk about Our creeds and our codes I read to her a poem That I once wrote about following what little light that still glowed Oh...Like Michelangelo's marble She possessed only the finest of features Now I've found what I seek All my life I've been a student And now I have a teacher Oh... Since I first heard her voice It seems I'm not alone Either by chance or by choice Her words carve my mind Like I was a piece of stone (Like I was a piece of stone) I recently became a believer I'm caught under her spell I recently became a believer In the lady known as Weaver (I love the lady Weaver) Just like Michelangelo's marble She possessed only the finest of features Now I've found what I seek All my life I've been a student And now I have a teacher Just like Michelangelo's marble She possessed only the finest of features Now I've found what I seek All my life I've been a student And now I have a teacher She's Michelangelo...I'm marble... Whoa... She's Michelangelo...I'm marble... Whoa... Yeah! What shape will I take? Seems it's too early to tell... I recently became a believer In the Lady known as Weaver And I hope you will as well... I hope you will as well I hope you will as well I hope you will as well She's Michelangelo...I'm marble... Whoa... Yeah! LOST AND FOUND By Tom Jensen I see what you have And I want it It will be mine For I'll pay any cost Someday you'll turn around And she will not be there For I will have found What you have lost You will begin to hate it But it was all premeditated Just when you thought You had everything together I finally convinced her That she can do better Because no matter where you go Pick any corner of the world There's one thing I know... There are only four types of girls: Either... For now For later Forever Or forget it And if she's three of the four Then you're gonna live to regret it For now comes and then goes For later keeps you on your toes Forget it never shows But when forever arrives Then everybody knows There is no such phrase As setting standards too high So be forewarned... When forever appears She catches everybody's eye ANOTHER HISTORY LESSON By Tom Jensen So just what do you want from me? Another bloody lesson on history? I am but one man can't you see Will there be anyone behind me When I finally make my stand? Could I see a show of hands? For I've grown sick and tired Of laying way back in the cut When your conscience burns with fire You reach a point where enough's enough No more playing follow the leader I just fell off of the societal ladder History is cyclical and I'm a big reader Many say I'm madder than the mad hatter But to me those vicious Tongues only flatter Only what my people say That's all that really matters I try to make a difference everyday Don't let my ego go run off and play For it may come home Broken and shattered I dress myself in rags and tatters For people see me More clearly this way It's a small price to pay To help keep the monsters at bay For there's very little that I need To be free of jealousy and conceit Just my one true love And our little ones at our feet Then I'd sleep well Knowing I've made a difference At least to most Of the people I meet That's my definition of winning Living in a box Saying everything sucks Now to me that's sinning Such unfulfillment Would be my defeat A human retreat Having to start all over again At the beginning NAMELESS by Tom Jensen You blew out my candle Just so yours could burn brighter You took my little girl And put bad things inside her Thoughts of not being good enough Oh how could she measure up In this morality fashion show That makes the rules up as they go Living in the shadows and staying low key Blending in with all the pretty things she sees It won’t make you famous but it will help you stay alive Sometimes remaining nameless is the reason why we thrive You blew out my candle Just so yours could burn brighter You burdened me with heavy load Just so you could tread lighter You laughed, pointed and sneered When I took the wheel and steered And as I wandered far off course You offered no form of support No helping hand to lend Not a guiding message sent Left abandoned on the shore When not thought useful anymore You kept looking at me To see the star I’d never be But did you question if your perception Was in fact reality? You blew out my candle Just so yours could burn brighter When I offered peace or war You declared, “Neither!” We’re locked in a state of paradox Where the focus has been lost Always scheming or else screaming Trying to get your point across There’s no more words? I’m at a loss… SHE by Tom Jensen She gently sighs And then she softly cries She still denies That there's a void inside An only child but not a lonely child Her horses were chained so they never ran wild An early life full of distractions And they all offered her protection But all of her paths were paved in stone She could never ever find her way all alone She...oh she...oh she... She...oh she... could not break free A child cloned from her environment Told what not to do without trying it Second thoughts... She never paid them any mind Just blocked out her memory and kept walking her straight line She was barefoot and pregnant And now she regrets it Once every man did want her Never dreaming her past Would ever come back to haunt her She...oh she...oh she... She...oh she... could not break free The man paid the bills and shattered her wills And broke her down to her simplest form Now she regrets it… Her life is pathetic Never thought it herself… Though everybody said it She bended and kneeled Her fate forever sealed A true-self never truly revealed After he left her wounds never healed Just another sheep left so defenseless She...oh she...oh she... She...oh she... could not break free She gently sighs and then she softly cries She gently sighs and then she softly cries She still denies that there's a void inside An only child but not a lonely child Her horses were chained so they never ran wild She was battling hard to defeat the day Seems she wouldn't have it any other way While trying hard to hide away all the lies She begins to feel a tear in her eye She...oh she...oh she... She...oh she... could not break free She...oh she...oh she... She...oh she... could not break free So she hides the pain away Has forgotten any other way Today's reflection still mirrors yesterday Yet May is another month away She… PANDORA'S BOX By Tom Jensen Closed is Pandora's box Now there is no face on the clock As this new day begins so surreal and sublime Glide with the ebb and flow Watch a once high tide now grow low As the sea dances in its endless pantomime On the banks of this shore One needs one's self And nothing more There's no reasons, no rhymes And thus everything is fine Just four seasons of sunshine The only killing is that of time There are no words That can hurt Nor lessons once taught Now needing to be unlearned Just a fire that burns Yet does not scorch Acting as a beacon And as a torch Helping to light the way For all those who've Been led astray Neither at work Nor at play Is where I've come to find myself today Lost freedom has been gained How could you ever be the same? Now self-aware of a life without ego or crime Tension has been released Finally your mind is at peace Being here alone is like traveling back in time Our fate still has yet to be sealed A glimmer of hope Has since been revealed No soldiers on the battlefield War has ended And time has healed Returning to the days of yore A glimmer of hope Has since been restored Neither at work Nor at play Is where I've come to find myself today Here along the banks of this shore One needs one's self And nothing more LET IT RIDE by Tom Jensen I can feel you're growing tired Can sense you're getting run down As you spoke your brain seemed wired So full of scattered thoughts bouncing all around When I called to cheer you up You seemed so very distant so far away I thought by now I knew all the words That could lighten your load and brighten up your day Hence when silence fell upon us My face took on a peculiar and puzzled state That's when I knew to throw away all my words For it was best for you and best for me to wait... You told me that you needed time Time alone with just yourself And not to take it personally But of course you knew how I felt... I felt like less of man And more like a child Since I always do what I can To make you smile Yet I respected your wishes Your will and desires As I gave you the space Which you said you required For I know you by now When it comes to troubled times like these I gracefully bow down And back away far enough Until it suits your needs For that is love... Learning when to push, when to pull and when to temporarily retreat For that is love... Knowing when to drive When to let it ride And when to take a backseat MISS YOU KISS YOU by Tom Jensen (and ) a duet… male =1 female = 2 and together = 3 1 Don’t you know I dream about you When I'm asleep and wide awake Both when I’m half asleep and wide awake 2 I know for I can tell when you're dreaming My upper lip starts to quiver and shake 1 Honey, don't you know I'm thinking of you On these empty, dark, cold and lonely nights? 2 I can tell what you're thinking As if I have the gift of second sight 3 I miss you… I wish to have you here So I can kiss you With passion, deep and sincere 3 And this too… Let me whisper into your ear Can't resist you Cause you're the love of my life And it's so clear 1 You know me so well that I don't have to say When you're away how I toss and turn Sweetie, that's alright Yeah baby, that's okay When out goes the light It’s for you I yearn 3 I miss you… I wish to have you here So I can kiss you With passion, deep and sincere 3 And this too… Let me whisper into your ear Can't resist you Cause you're the love of my life And it's so clear 1 I long to have you I long to hold you I’d like to see this through And grow old with you 1 I miss you, I’d kiss you And this too, I can’t resist you 3 I miss you… I wish to have you here So I can kiss you With passion, deep and sincere 3 And this too… Let me whisper into your ear Can't resist you Cause you're the love of my life And it's so clear 1 Don't you know I'm thinking of you On these empty and lonely nights Yea I can tell what you're thinking Cause I always got you here inside 2 I miss you I want to have you here So I can kiss you Don't ever worry my dear I can't resist you Cause you're the love of my life And it's so clear 2 I long to have you I long to hold you I'd like to see this through No one else out there Makes me feel the way you do 1 I miss you I want to have you here So I can kiss you Don't ever worry my dear I can't resist you Cause you're the love of my life And it's so clear 3 I long to have you I long to hold you I'd like to see this thru No one else out there Makes me feel the way you do 2 I wanna hold you I wanna have you I'd like to see this thru 2 No one else out there Makes me feel the way you do 1 I long to have you I long to hold you I'd like to see this through CLINICAL DEPRESSION By Tom Jensen Narrator: She finds a bottle of pills And she holds them in her hand Daughter: My whole world is falling down And no one understands There's only one way to solve my problems That's for me to go away After I'm placed in my grave I won't hear anyone say... Parents: She had the whole world in her hand But she let all of us down Now she's gone to a faraway place Though she's only six feet underground Parents: What on earth would make her think That we didn't love her so? What pushed her past the brink To where there was no place left to go? Daughter: Mom and dad I never meant to hurt you Nor cause you any pain I guess that I imagined My loss would be your gain Parents: Whatever happened in the past Is nothing compared to this That would pass just like the moon With just a hug and kiss Parents: This is your one mistake That'll never be undone We used to have two children Now we're left with only one Everybody stumbles When they learn to walk Everybody mumbles When they learn to talk Parents: What we've learned with age Is that you give it your best shot We prayed that you'd be strong But you never even fought Did you ever listen To anything we'd taught? When swimming against the tide You give it everything you've got Daughter: With expectations oh so high You nailed me to the wall You placed me on a pedestal So I was bound to fall I ended up lying down When I tried to stand too tall And when I needed you the most I was too afraid to call Parents: How could we have missed the truth With the writing on the wall? Why did you say nothing When we should have known it all? If only you had told us For we can be so blind If only had we known We would have been more kind Daughter: Oh no, what have I done? This shouldn't be my fate… I realize I've made only one mistake But now it's far too late Parents: Always remember that You're daddy's little girl The world would have been Your oyster and you its pearl Parents: I would do anything To give you a second chance I would trade my soul eternally Paying with a pound of flesh in advance Parents: Not only were you my daughter you were my best friend If only you had known That it didn't have to end Daughter: Goodbye mama… Goodbye papa… May we meet again                                                                                                                    t COLLABORHYTHM COLLABTUNES Home Features Pricing Testimonials Contact Blog COLLABTUNES.COM